这样的工作方式需要投入很多的精力和情感，同时会牺牲一些职业化，但它可以避免单调重复，因为技术层面上的复制是可能的，艺术层面却永远需要创新。
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闲云野鹤的生活结束了，一个月的休息让我对人生的意义有了新的理解。我把自己投入到新东方给我安排的新的工作里，我终于从自己狭小的世界里走出来，学习向身边的人打开心灵的窗户；注意力一点点从纯粹形而上的问题上挪开，再一点点开始关注现世的问题。
所以，最近考虑的问题不只是李安的《色，戒》如何区别于张爱玲的，还有工作——当然不是单纯意义上的工作，而是融入了我的那些奇怪想法的工作。在负责老师培训的工作里，我开始思考一个问题：职业化和美感可以共存吗？
当许多人整日面对一大堆麻烦时，他们考虑的重点肯定是如何运用方便的方式解决这些麻烦，然后会习惯性的重复这种方便的方式，这样做有很多优势，尤其从效率角度考虑，但它的劣势是会让自己的思想很快变得标准化，成为体制化的一部分。
我在那段不太入世的生活里，也许并不只是虚度时光，无意中学会了一种能力，就是在解决技术层面问题的同时，还能在艺术层面增加一些美感。这种能力已经变成了一种习惯，让我在琐碎中避免重复，每天为自己制造出一些小小的欣喜。
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美感可以是极浅层次的。譬如，决不因为繁忙蓬头垢面，任何时候都让自己看起来很漂亮；请人吃饭时能选择让他舒服的餐厅，不仅填饱肚子，还能让他若干日后想起，内心怀有眷恋；等等。当然，这是很低的层次，许多物质主义的拥护者在这方面做了很多修炼，据说，他们被称作“小资”。成大事者对此往往不屑。
前几天，在一件小事上，我感受到一个更高的层次。除了外在的美感，更有力量的美感来自思想和情感。当一个人和其他人交流时，他的一段话除了解决某个问题，还能让听者对更广泛问题进行思考，并在思考的过程中获得审美的愉悦。
我遇到的事情是这样的，一些老师报名参加英语沙龙，未出现也没请假。其实，这样的事天天都在发生，我们可以选择视而不见，也可以选择提出批评，我想，或许还有另一种方式。我发出了这样一封邮件。
Dear all,
You are going to read lovely words portraying an enjoyable afternoon spent in Greenary café with witty conversation. These words serve as the review of our second English salon, which was hosted by Virginia and June. Yet, I need to mention a few things that may not be so enjoyable. It is not that I intend to be a wet blanket, but that I personally find it necessary to attach some importance to what is gradually assumed to be less important.
I guess most of us have watched Sex and City and still remember the first episode. It is about an English journalist dating an investment banker. More than kissing and caressing, they made love; more than making love, they drove to the man’s newly bought house, looking at the decoration plans. That night, the man dropped the woman at her apartment and reminded her of their dinner plans for Tuesday. On Tuesday, he called and said he would have to take a rain check. After a two-week long rain check, she called him and he said he would call her later. And of course, he never did. When the innocent journalist was relating her experience with bewilderment in her eyes, a few words showed on the screen: Welcome to the Age of Un-Innocence.
Some teachers who entered for our activity did not show up! “This is normal.” I was told by our peaceful secretary, who had obviously accustomed herself to such uninformed absence. Enthusiasm wanes. This is human nature and totally understandable. We sometimes have to change our plans, because plans are interrupted by unpredictable and capricious incidents. This is life and also understandable! But are we so busy that we do not get round to making a phone call? A phone call takes 1 minute, but it frees our hostesses from anxious expectation and deep frustration.
The man in the story disappeared. Behind this uninformed disappearance, there is a message: you don’t have to be so serious! After all, this is also an age of Un-seriousness. Everyday, we are busy receiving this message and, at the same time, sending the message to people around us. Perhaps, this characterizes our age. Besides, this also leaves scars.
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这样的工作方式需要投入很多的精力和情感，同时会牺牲一些职业化，但它可以避免单调重复，因为技术层面上的复制是可能的，艺术层面却永远需要创新。
对我而言，人生的意义除了存在，还有感受；做许多事情，除了让别人认可，还要让自己内心愉悦。
我希望自己在忙碌中，能一直有这样的心情，看着落叶起舞，想象自己置身其中，感受秋天的气息，惊叹自然创造美的神奇力量。
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